Your Air-Conditioner is Killing You

A protester at the ‘No Kings’ protest holds a sign in protest of fascism. Knoxville, TN - June 14, 2025.

An overhead view of the ‘No Kings’ protest in Knoxville, TN.

There was a protest dubbed ‘No Kings’ recently. I debated going. Not that I don’t enjoy being around others that loosely share some of the same sentiments as myself, I mean hell, echo chambers make the world feel safe, it’s that I don’t see how chanting with people who agree with you, holding signs, and having cars agreeably honk changes the oppressive actions of any administration. There is an argument to be made for attending and showing those ignorant to the outright fascism, or bedazzled fascism, what we who do not agree with current regimes and their murdering of innocent civilians, say, oh I don’t know, such as in Gaza, have learned and what we hope for the future. But when one side is touting Lambo’s and $5,000 suits, and the other is speaking on political theory by a dead bearded guy and wanting to dismantle the state which makes it possible to get that Lambo, it’s easy to see why one side is dominating the narrative. Shiny things make ape brain tingle.

I suppose I should clarify that I’ll be specifically speaking on referencing the political climate and spectrum of the United States. To define some terminology so there is no confusion, as I’ve seen it rampant on social media and in the more…not so popular media:

Anarchy/Anarchist/Anarchism, deriving from the greek an-archos, literally means no ruler(s). Hence why those waving American flags at a protest with the nomenclature ‘No Kings’ was a bit ironic. Anarchism isn’t chaos, it isn’t lawlessness, and it definitely isn’t authoritarianism. It is, at its core, a political philosophy that rejects unjust hierarchies—whether it's the state, capitalism, police, or any institution that demands obedience without justification. Anarchists believe in mutual aid, direct democracy, and self-governance.

Leftist - As simply as possible, left of Liberal. e.g. Communist/Marxist. Socialist. *All Marxists and communists are socialists, but not all socialists are necessarily communists.

Liberal/Liberalism/Neoliberalism - Progressive views within the framework of capitalist society, perpetuates oppression and hegemony, but does so waving pride flags, so it’s better, somehow, knowing what the underlying issue is, but continuing it because revolution, even peaceful, is scary.

Centrist - Oh lord..

Politically indecisive or ideologically comfortable. Think: financially conservative, socially liberal—except that means nothing in practice. Usually someone who benefits enough from the current system to feel uneasy about radical change, but not enough to feel safe without it. Loud opinions, shallow understanding.

Right-Wing/Republican/Conservative - Usually nationalist, often authoritarian, pro-capitalist by default. They're deeply embedded in traditional hierarchies: patriarchy, white supremacy, corporate power. They view change as a threat and regurgitate propaganda as patriotism. For an understanding of why they are the way they are, see Dunning-Kruger effect. They think Antifa is an organized group, and not just a mindset of ‘fuck nazis in general.’

Libertarian - They flirt with anti-authoritarianism but can’t quit capitalism. Often obsessed with “freedom” until it applies to poor people, workers, or marginalized communities. Tends to drive a Jeep with a Gadsden flag and confuse market deregulation with liberation.

Anything right of this Usually combines law and order with purity and an ethno-state. The exact opposite of a good look and usually ends with a certain country winning due to them invading during winter. Fascist, authoritarianism, dictatorship, etc. Everything opposed to what the majority of the 8 billion people on this planet want for themselves and others, but is the easiest answer to late-stage capitalism, which we find ourselves in at the moment. So, welcome to full-blown hell instead of the slightly less, everyone.

As an aside, I loathe the little names each side comes up with and uses like they’re some epiphany from the political gods. Calling Trump TACO or calling anyone with a Bachelor’s a libtard isn’t making your groceries cheaper and certainly did not save the more than 50,000 children in Gaza. Certain priorities should be adjusted, or maybe everyone should simply grow up.

It isn’t that most won’t look beyond the current system, it’s that they can’t. They lack the tools with which to do so—Consumed by ideology in that the predominant, hegemonic rhetoric has enveloped their entire sense of the world. Limiting any ability to look beyond while also creating a certainty of correctness due to how damn good American propaganda has been all these decades. Forcing the majority to stay within the confines of said rhetoric by establishing confirmation bias and echo chambers.

Even if we take the differing, superficial issues of liberals and conservatives within American politics. Some examples: Illegals/non-illegals, tighter border security/better vetting and systems for citizenship, pro-choice/pro-life, climate change/it’s just weather, healthcare/dying like an animal because no money, race, gender, sexuality, anything, anything but being aware the billionaire class is fucking us all, each side primarily agrees that the system in which we are participating is the only system, with slight nuances to establish infighting of a singular class, the working class, through those pesky, aforementioned culture wars. And therefore, arguments between these two groups only further legitimize the state, its rhetoric and, ultimately, its power over the people producing everything.

The illusion between liberals and conservatives is a deeply held tactic of the state. Both sides argue endlessly over issues created by the state, while rarely criticizing the structure that ensures wars stay profitable, wealth flows upward, and labor stays cheap. A little bit of that manufacturing consent Chomsky spoke on. Deliberate distractions exist to keep class consciousness at bay. The state doesn’t need to silence dissent when people are glad the state is at their protests, and when it can redirect the conversation toward ultimately meaningless binaries. It legitimizes itself through this opposition. A boot on your neck feels the same even if it has rainbow laces. 

A ‘No Kings’ attendee protesting Trump by referencing his numerous sexual assault convictions.

This is not to say these issues do not matter, of course bodily autonomy for all, especially a historically oppressed group such as women, matters, but when they protest in the streets, with their clever signs, dressed in their ‘protest fits’ while marching side-by-side with police, there isn’t a true protest occurring. I’m not calling for violence against the state, but don’t thank the cops who are there to keep you from full civil unrest, especially when what your protesting is the end of opposition to a draconian existence. “The cops are being really nice,” a woman who wanted to stay anonymous said to me. “I’m glad they’re here,” she continued. Yes, it was one of the notorious reflective vest women, who are nice, open to chat, but in the end, neoliberals. And as an anarchist, I’m bothered by liberals more than conservatives in some sense, because the liberals know what they continue to vote for, time and time again. And knowing, but keeping the status quo propped up for a comfort such as air-conditioning is something which, one day, may be seen as unforgivable. But at least it’s not as bad as Lamborghinis and bespoke Italian suits, right?

Look, compromising your values to survive is how things work in modern society. Freedom is an ideal we’re told we have, and some believe it because they can eat hotdogs on Saturdays…if their boss doesn’t force them to work overtime. What I’m trying to argue is, we’re all wanting essentially the same thing. Sure some religious zealots or racists may stand in the way, but in the end, we all want equality, self-sovereignty and a taste of the decadence thrown in our faces every second of every day. Try looking beyond yourself, not through some horrible, nationalist lens, but simply as a human being living alongside other human beings.

Alfred

  Alfred is a staple of downtown. His deep, bellowing voice bounces off the facades of our little city’s shops, announcing he is here, while his kindness cements he should be. It’s been a long road with Alfred. He was homeless, then got a place off Sutherland through Helen Ross McNabb, but is back on the streets again. “I ain’t stayin’ out here long this time. I fuckin’ ain’t, man,” he said when he first got back on the streets. It’s been a few months now, but he’s still trying. “That’s all you can do. You just keep going,” he said as we sat together on a park bench. It recently snowed and we were acquainted with over a week of freezing temperatures. Our community took a hit, with at least 9 people dying of hypothermia according to our local newspaper. Luckily, Alfred wasn’t one of them. “I hate that people froze to death because they didn’t want to listen. I stayed at a warming center. It’s a church on Magnolia, Magnolia United Methodist Church. We stayed there all week. Stayed outta the cold, and we stayed warm. They fed us and nobody went hungry,” he said.

Later, he brought up Linda Shropshire, a local sweetheart I’d known for 12 years. She froze to death on the streets in a city with more than enough ability to never let this happen.

            When it started to snow, he was on Magnolia already. “It started snowing really, really bad, so me being the ingenious, resourceful person that I am, I called the cops. No bullshit. I called to police. There’s one time ya gotta call them on yourself, man,” he said, laughing. “…and they came and got me, man. Took me up there.”

            He explained how his mother gave him a few extra bucks since they had to limit the meals to account for everyone. “I had Arby’s, McDonalds, Family Dollar right up the street. I didn’t want for shit, man. I lived like a fuckin’ king up there.”

            “Don’t ever give up.” He stopped, seeing another person in similar overalls and went on to tell me he had cleaning supplies to wash his clothes and how good the sandwiches in the market are. He reached in his pocket to pull up a picture of Linda on his phone. “She fuckin’ passed away, out here in the damn cold,” he said. “It’s just sad, man. We all tried to get her to come up. She just wouldn’t come up.” He showed me the photo. He sat there for awhile, his demeanor changed and he slumped and stared off. We sat there for awhile, simply together.

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            He eventually continued. “It’s going to get better. I just gotta keep plugging away for shit. It might be rough. We know I don’t do the mission. There’s drugs, violence, just chaos in general. I don’t want to deal with it. I’d rather go somewhere, lay down and know I got a peace of fuckin’ mind.” His outlook on life is something we can all take consideration of. Staying away from situations that aren’t beneficial just because they may be easier. If I know anything about Alfred, his life has not been easy, but he’s smart, kind. I’ve long seen a man who constantly tries to turn what he was given into something he can appreciate a little more each day.

    Before it got cold, he called me over in Market Square and opened up to me. He told me about his struggles and a loss in the family he’d just went through. We hugged and sat together. This big, deep voiced man was fully knocked down for the first time I’d seen, but knew the avenues to feel loved, listened to, while offering the same along the way. “That’s why I fuck with you, Ryan. You a real one.” I do nothing but listen, and I think that’s what most of us, at the very least, hope for.

Greg

He was sitting outside Coffee and Chocolate when I noticed him. Two years without him and we continually asked within our circle of friends, “I wonder how Greg is.” He struggles with mental illness, taking conversations to abstract places and concepts that would push us to pay attention, not because we had to, but because we wanted to. One of the last conversations I had with him before he moved away was about the entanglement of super heroes in the world as it sat then, and how God is showing us ways to fight against evil. Confused, enthralled, and knowing he enjoyed the company as much as we did. 

As of 2022, Knoxville saw a fifty percent increase in homelessness from the previous year. Around 1,178 people are without a steady home, with around 373 without shelter. Don’t mistake my placing of the stats warrants any moral high ground. The reason is to show the number of lost conversations by way of stigmas and unallocated resources readily available. Having made friends with the houseless has offered a array of perspectives: Some chaotic, ambiguous, but most grounding and valuable. Greg has always been a beautiful mixture. 

I had first met him before I spent my time in downtown, and a bit before living downtown. It was nearing Christmas, and I had an old Nikon D40x, gifted to me by my now mother-in-law. I asked him if I could take his photo, he obliged, and then asked if he wanted food. “No, I already ate. Thank you,” he said, with a slight smile and nod. I didn’t know his name and didn’t run into him again for over a year. When I did, he had changed to what the much better and meaningful photograph shows. A man me and many others have felt as almost essential to the overall feeling of community in our little city. I’ve learned throughout the years, anyone, offered enough interest and comfort to share, will give a story that builds safety and happiness in a community. 

As mentioned, Greg moved away for awhile, and just as he arrived, he came back, unannounced, stoic and as happy to see us and we were him. His life, known only because we’ve asked, is fulfilled and he brings that joy he’s found to others. Having been a man wearing a suit daily, working in a demanding job, to someone who loves enough to help us understand what it truly means to be happy, comfortable, and, in all the ways we need, giving. 

My Friend, Joe

It was warm when I saw him. Night and the street lights let off their glow that saturated the city in orange. We noticed each other and began talking. He told me he was homeless, which didn’t surprise me, but hurt, knowing someone I was once so close with now lives in a tent off the highway somewhere. I asked him how he’d been doing, having not seen him in close to a decade, and he said good. That he was a heroin addict, but trying to get through it. I had known addicts in the past. They were fine people, stole on occasion, but they were all friends, and were funny now and again. But Joe was different. He was one of my closest friends in high school. Helped me through homelessness in our teen years. I’d stay at his small house, now demolished and a hill of dirt, and play music and watch Led Zeppelin at the Royal Albert Hall on repeat; Or sometimes Fight Club on VHS. It would click at the end and rewind itself and play again and we’d wake in the middle of the night, cold from the draft coming through the broken window, and watch a bit of it and fall back asleep. That was when the hardest thing he did was smoke some weed. Now it’s much harder stuff. I’d been around this stuff before, but no one I felt a connection with. 

We talked more and I asked him for a photograph and he said, “I need some money.” So I went to the ATM and pulled out some cash and he let me snap a shot. We parted ways with plans to meet up and do more photos. 

About a week later we met on a cold morning and he seemed excited. Giddy almost, and he led me through the city, talking about how he used to live in the old Kern’s Bakery and how it had gotten him arrested. He got clean inside, but inevitably went back. And that’s something I feel is important to touch on. Why go back? I’m sure you’re asking. But let's put ourselves in not only a homeless man’s shoes, but an addict’s as well. 

I won’t bore an already jaded society with statistics, but I will lay a couple links down in hopes they might be looked at for a better understanding.

Addiction(Substance Use Disorder) from the APA

A nice TedTalk on thinking about addiction with new research

I asked Joe why he went back to heroin. He responded in a way I had thought of prior, but it was almost refreshing to hear it validated. “Why wouldn’t I? My girlfriend does it, I don’t know anyone else, I’m homeless. I live in a fuckin’ tent. What else am I supposed to do.” 

He’s right. He already has a mental disorder doomed to crave substances, and he’s also homeless. What is his incentive to get clean? He’d still be homeless, but sober, having to deal with the realization every day. These are larger issues, both with the way we treat people in this country and the criminalization of addicts. Treating instead of criminalizing addicts is always shown to work. The war on drugs and the stigma against addicts has led us to overfilled prisons and next to free labor, and left families and neighborhoods crumbled, destroyed for a problem that should be helped, not punished. 

We walked on, warming now under the midday sun and he checked his jacket pocket for syringes, pulling the box out and opening it. “You guys have clean needles?” I asked. 

“Yeah. My old lady doesn’t care, but I make sure she stays safe.” 

I could see the police station as we took a left, down an old and beaten drive, ducking left under some branches and into an encampment. I met his girlfriend and she promptly took a small baggy from her pocket and began arranging its contents on a spoon, bent somewhat, as shown in the photos, and heated it. The substance twirled and bubbled into a murky tan and she sucked some up into one of the new syringes and Joe, this friend I’d known to play guitar as well as Montgomery or Reindhart, who had always been there to the best to his abilities, someone who protected me, tied off and stuck himself and took it all in, drifting off and into some place beyond my understanding and he was lost there, floating, euphoria, inches from death and back again, now giving me a tour of the encampment, happy he could show me around. “She has trouble finding a vein. She doesn’t like people around when she does it,” he said.  

I asked him what made him go to heroin. Turns out he had broken his back in a car wreck and had been prescribed opioids wherein he discovered their overwhelming power. He went from that, while sitting in a small apartment with an ex-girlfriend, to being offered heroin. He declined for a few days, but as the pill supply began to wither and his desperation for a release himself grew, he caved. And Joe became a heroin addict. It was hard not to think of how he might have made it to something great while I rested on the balls of my feet at the opening of his tent. Admiring in some way his freedom, but a sadness always there, looking at him, at the woman he was with, their few, dirty possessions there in the mud. 

The world is a grey mess. A disgusting, unforgiving spec in the cosmos, come about by the turning of the universe, an accident all. And here we are, floating like Joe. 

They did another and rested for a few minutes, holding each other, the sun peaking through a tear in the tarp and they smoked old cigarettes and ate cookies and we walked on, them holding hands, comfortable, strolling toward the city.  

I’ve sat on this encounter for close to a year, wondering if it was worth sharing, if my view is valid. I don’t know, still. But I do know Joe is a good person. And has recently started looking for work and programs that might help him. So here’s to Joe, my friend and my hopefulness he can find something else to help him escape. 

 Update: I interviewed Joe a few times after this encounter. In the last interview, I asked him the cliche question asked to all of us in high school, where he saw himself in five years. He said, “…probably in my own house. Probably have my shit together. Bragging about how I got clean and out of homelessness.” He paused, and said, “…Or, in five years, I’m not gonna be around, but you’ll be able to read my tombstone.” I asked him if that worried him. He confirmed. I then asked if he was afraid of death. He said, “No,” while looking out the window, “…I’m afraid of how that would affect my kid.” 

Joe passed from a fentanyl overdose not much longer after that interview.